To You…
i wouldn’t know~
This phrase reminds me of you a lot. Why? Because you kept saying it that night. Amidst the confusion, amidst the struggle for balance, amidst my effort to make sense of what’s happening around me, I hear your voice whispering those three words to my ear. Somehow it stuck, like a big claw-like creature clinging to someone’s face (remember Alien?).
And then there’s this question hovering above my head: am I in the rebound?
I’ve thought about this the whole night and I came up with this:
a. bitterness is finding someone to shower your pent up emotions to (e.g. time, affection, care, etc.), feeling that you have so much of those in you, while,
b. unbitterness is acceptance, deciding to move on, and finding someone who’s willing to walk with you.
I don’t want to waste your time. I don’t want to put you in a vulnerable spot. I don’t want to use you. I want to enjoy you, get to know you more, find out what your quirks are. I want my eyes to behold the real you. The one hiding underneath those glasses, the one hiding behind the landmines, electrocuted fences, sentries, pillboxes and raptors. I want to know you as I experienced you that day, when we lay down amidst the pillows, just talking, dozing off, and then getting startled with my sudden twitching. In short, I need you to stay with me, and get to know me more. 
I have beheld in my mind, over and over this little scene that we had on my bed, (I’m not divulging any more information because I wish to preserve that bit only for me to relish) and no, it wasn’t sexual in nature you pervert.
I liked the bus ride en route to your pad. Yes, kahit pareho tayong tulog, I still liked it. Did I ever mention that I’m awestruck when your eyes brighten when you have something exciting to say? Gawd! Rawr~
Have I said too much already? No. I would have had a lot more to say if our daily obligations at work didn’t intervene, but then again, the excitement, the anxiety, the giddiness I feel before I see you or talk to you really gets me high.
I like it.
Rawr~
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11 Responses to “To You…”
By michie on Nov 21, 2005 | Reply
tsk....... senti mode na naman ha....... ul find IT soon..... just be patient....... keep hopin, keep believin......... :)
By keysi on Nov 21, 2005 | Reply
IT? *headscratch*
By michie on Nov 21, 2005 | Reply
waaaaaa.. you know what i mean......hahahah..toink!
By chumsy on Nov 21, 2005 | Reply
hello mo ko sa kanyaaa! hihihihi.. :D
By keysi on Nov 22, 2005 | Reply
hehehehehehehehehehe! sure chumsy! :P
By botsai on Nov 22, 2005 | Reply
yihee... sana maging masaya ka. :)
By keysi on Nov 22, 2005 | Reply
botsai botsai botsai! :lol: talamat!
By Jet on Nov 23, 2005 | Reply
paker... wuit rawring ahuhuhu lol ^_^ yeehee.
kadiri so senti. where's the grudge? gagu pwahaha
By WiLL on Nov 23, 2005 | Reply
putek....kaw ba yan, pre?! parang nanlambot ang iyong rocker na puso ah. hehehe. nice to know you're not bitter anymore. you're happy anymore. hehehe. happy journey, pre.
By sylvia plath on Nov 28, 2005 | Reply
one of the mysteries that seems to plague our angst-ridden unconscious and the equally materialiastic society we live in is that of the complexities of human relationships. notice the vast amounts of self-help books about dating, keeping a relationship and whatnot that lined the bookstore shelves to see what im talking about. that, and taking into consideration serious hangups that came to make the brew interesting to stir.
as it is that your current epiphany regarding this aforementioned individual, whom i am assuming to be sane, either boggles you even further or you would just be needing a few winks to get your mind straight about these things. let it be for naught, however, that this revelations will make you fear that it fell on deaf ears. history has proved time and again, saccharrine words are bane of womanhood. and so, it would be and have been appreciated.
enough with innanities, whatever it is that you are planning i say good luck and good riddance. if you are not on the rebound well good for you, assists have always been crucial in any game anyway.